A Splintered Mind

I get the feeling I should have stayed in bed on Sunday and avoided this entire week. I don't know what was wrong, but I spent the better part of the week putting out fires. Open mouth, insert fanny. Ever have one of those weeks where you aren't looking for trouble but spend most of your time falling right into its lap? This may not be AD/HD's fault, however. It may be related to the other neurological troubles I have, but I can't really hide behind it whatever was the cause. "Oh, sorry for the misunderstanding. I'm not usually this much of a jerk. It's my disability." No, not the most comforting of sentiments. A Rapier Wit I won't bore you by detailing all the fires I singed my fanny on, but I can give you one example. My brother massforwarded a funny email to me and 43 of his closest friends. I let him know I didn't want that to happen again. Oh, I meant to be diplomatic, but he suggested in his reply that I could use some work on congenialit...

I posted this earlier today on Slashdot, but thought others might like to read it. I think the poll data from the link is accurate for AOL but not accurate for the blog sea as a whole, my own "therapeutic" blog notwithstanding. First, I should disclose that my blog, The Splintered Mind , deals with personal issues and is often a form of therapy, though I like to believe that others may find the entries entertaining, useful, and sometimes even funny (even if unintentionally). Certainly the comments I receive from time to time reflect that. That being said, I don't know how applicable the results of this poll are to blogging in general. I read an awful lot of political and technology blogs and not a single one of them is on AOL. In fact, considering that the poll was conducted for AOL on AOL from AOL users, are we surprised that the majority of AOL "bloggers" blog about anything, read other blogs for entertainment, and don't rate politics or technology high...

The world may flip inside out and turn upside down, but some things remain constant, providing our sanity with bolts to the floor. How tragic for me that my floor usually has a cold, wet, and sticky spill right in the middle of it... There's been a dearth of humor in this blog lately, mostly because I've been busy, but also because I've been so down. I've lacked focus this summer and am only now returning to "normal". Thankfully, the kids are in school and the heat has abated. I don't know why, but this summer was the absolute worst. My brain melted in June and didn't jell until two weekends ago. I assure you that if it wasn't for the corks I kept in my ears, I wouldn't be able to jot any cogent thoughts here now. Therefor, in light of my newly solidified grey matter, what better way to celebrate the advent of focus than with a bad luck entry! Wet Socks My ten year old was cooking hotdogs today. She was shuffling about the kitchen in sock...

Been so busy with podcasts, kids, and my usual troubles this summer that I haven't had time to explore fractal art. Any free time I had was put into my blogs, especially Cootey's Critters . Judging by how little has been done on that blog I didn't have much free time. However, I'm not down about it. I have some great ideas in store for that blog and look forward to implementing them this month. See? I can be positive. "Cathedral to Stars" evokes a sense of passage and motion to me. The sweeping ribs along the side draw the eye towards the towards the center, but the circle plants the eye there. I wanted to experiment with a centered design that still had variety. I feel I accomplished that with this piece and am fairly pleased with it. To see more of my fractal artwork , follow the link here or in the side menu.

When I needed a quick pick-me-up tonight Zola was there to comfort me. AIM IM with ZolaOnAOL. 8:01 PM ME: Zola, I'm so glad you are online! ZOLA: Um, Yes it is about time. ME: I'm feeling dark and depressed. What should I do? ZOLA: Maybe you should try talking to someone about it. ME: Isn't that what I'm trying to do with you? ZOLA: Suppose I said yes. ME: Then you would be admitting you're not listening to me very well. ZOLA: Good reasoning. Interesting gossip. ME: Zola, I feel like I'm useless. ZOLA: Um, What is that feeling like? ME: It's when you, um, feel unimportant and, um, Useless? ZOLA: You're kidding. It is? ME: Wow! I am so very glad we are having this conversation! ZOLA: Yes I am happy too, TheLaughingImp. 8:05 PM ME: You've helped things come into focus for me. You gave me some much needed clarity. ZOLA: Interesting gossip. ME: Not really. ZOLA: Why not? ME: Because I'm trying to share my feelings with you and you are being obtuse. Z...

Summer was tough on many counts. As detailed before, my insomnia and chronic motor tic disorder slammed me hard and left me dazed. At the same time, I had four kids home everyday keeping me very busy. Now that school has started up again, I'm finding more time for myself and consequently have started tinkering around my web pages again. I have made minor cosmetic changes to this blog, but the greatest has been the creation of a new blog: The Absentminded Bookshelf . My book review section was growing too long so I stopped adding to it months ago. However, I think blogging those reviews on a seperate blog will give me give me ample opportunity to express myself while not detracting from this site. Pop on over and let me know what you think of the books I've been reading. My last entry wasn't so funny or humorous. As I stated before, summer was tough. But I'm feeling more chipper now and ready to have a go at life again. I have some editorial changes in mind...