I stayed up late last night to work out final details on a logo for a client. I've been very excited to work on this assignment. The client, Mindy, is my daughter's former singing instructor. What a busy lady she is. She has a dance studio in her basement with over a hundred students. Has over 30 students for singing instruction, she's involved with local productions, and she just picked up a gig as the Cheetah Girls vocal coach. Somewhere in there she finds time to raise her son. Frankly, I don't know how she does it, but I aimed to find out. That's why this assignment is so important to me. I want a peek into her busy world to see how she juggles it all.
The problem is that Home Schooling has taken a greater toll on my time than I had anticipated. I've also had bout after bout with viruses. I'm so blasted sick all the time. And nevermind all the downtime because of my tic disorder. These events have drawn out this assignment longer than I feel comfortable with. So I'm feeling down about that, and down about not hooking up with her today because her schedule changed, even though she's not worried about it. Not only that, but there is a part of me that believes that even if Mindy were to share her secrets of productivity with me I would not be able to utilize them.
So there is genuine disappointment, but there is also the cursed Depression with apathy and self-doubt creeping in at the corners. The Depression is really irritating me. I want to be in control of me, not my chemical imbalance. I am so tired of time wasted in sadness. So I push it off again and again. Really, what choice do I have? If I want to succeed I must conquer my greatest enemy: myself.
The problem is that Home Schooling has taken a greater toll on my time than I had anticipated. I've also had bout after bout with viruses. I'm so blasted sick all the time. And nevermind all the downtime because of my tic disorder. These events have drawn out this assignment longer than I feel comfortable with. So I'm feeling down about that, and down about not hooking up with her today because her schedule changed, even though she's not worried about it. Not only that, but there is a part of me that believes that even if Mindy were to share her secrets of productivity with me I would not be able to utilize them.
So there is genuine disappointment, but there is also the cursed Depression with apathy and self-doubt creeping in at the corners. The Depression is really irritating me. I want to be in control of me, not my chemical imbalance. I am so tired of time wasted in sadness. So I push it off again and again. Really, what choice do I have? If I want to succeed I must conquer my greatest enemy: myself.
