Friday, March 14, 2008

The Splintered Chat #9

I'm not ready for this. (-_-)

Ah, yes. My daughter is now sweet sixteen. And boys drop by to visit her. I am so very, very not ready for this. I've had sixteen years to prepare, but still I feel as if this has all happened too quickly.

Silly, no? Tonight my daughter continues her meteoric climb up. She has been asked to sing lead for a bluegrass band. I see her life building from one success to another. My wife, too, goes from one job to a better job, each one building upon skills she acquired through on-the-job training. My life, on the other hand, feels as if my successes are scattered randomly behind me, none linking to each other. As I wrap up a DVD project today, I undertake a web design project next, with another waiting in the wings after that. One would think I'd be excited about all this, and I am, but there's a nagging feeling in the back of my mind.

Don't get me wrong. I truly am excited for the work, but each job feels like a 90° turn from the other. I suspect that's just me who feels that way. I have so many irons in the fire is it any wonder the projects feel disconnected from one another? I would probably be bored moving from point A to point B. I wonder how others with ADHD feel about their careers and where they are going. Do you find yourself working towards a goal, are you just gainfully employed and wondering what you are doing there, or do you feel like you're spinning plates for a living? Me? I'm a plate spinner. I just wish I had a pit orchestra to play the soundtrack of my life. It might seem more purposeful then. ;)

This begins this week's chat. I forgot to close last weekend's. I believe I will retire ADHD Ambitions since it has not consistently spawned the responses I was hoping it would, and instead just state my goals here in the Splintered Chat. It's better for me to just have one open conversation to worry about anyway. I'll leave it open for one week.

Discuss ADHD and career goals amongst yourselves, or bring up another topic you feel strongly about. Have a great day.

~Douglas


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